bitch_face_4's Journal

4:12pm: i've never been happier =)

11:00am: fuck....i hate moving...oh well...everything that's not furniture is almost all moved out into the tiny apartment...my dad can be a dumb ass sometimes...any whooooo..........we're about to disconnect the computer...and it will not have internet till next week =O
and now i'm hungry...

12:19pm:  MY ROOM IS ALMOST DONE 
FUCKING SHIT NEEDS TO GET PAINTED!

3:16pm:

I WANT MY PHONE
*shoots self*

11:07pm:

happy
very very happy =)

10:04pm:  i'm hungry



and is much to ask for my father to be home at atleast 9pm?
he's like my mom used to be, not as bad thank god, but shit!
sat. night i heard a gun shots and i'm home alone...
or what if someone comes into our back yard again?
if he's not going to be home he should call me and atleast
leave me a message so i know to keep my dog at the house

6:49am:  today i am going to 
MALIBU...random
AND THEN TOMORROW!
hopefully i can stare at the really hot guy at the dog park..if he's there
if he is my day will be made


i've just realized i like older guys...not like 10 year older or anything but a few years older...idk
guys my age...i just don't like...perhaps i am too mature for my age when it comes to personality...
no...idk...there's just something wrong with me =P

10:16pm:  sooooooooooo between guys i have a choice between someone who is 22...too old who lives in orange county and who i actually like...orrrr chelsey's bf younger brother who is a year younger than me and lives incredibly close...but i think he's extremely immature and we get along


i think...i shall choose neither
cause...i'm sure neither will work out too well =)

10:55am:  welllll i'm single again...and i'm not going to lie...but there's a few guys that look like they were waiting for it to happen...and now they're fucking annoying...one onf my friends from millikan was like hinting at things...i'm like i'm not going to fuck you...he says why not...i remind him of his gf..then he gives the idea of them breaking up...because they were already on a "big break"...and he still got the answer no..then he starts saying it's not my problem and she has nothing to do with me and blablabla...then i tell hime to give me a good reason...it was "because i would be good at it"..........EWWWWWWWWWW...no...that's not cool...no more talking to his ass...it's like wtf...i just got out of a 9 month relationship...and your suppose to be my "friends"...but all your asking me about is fucking...not cool 



and then later the guy at rite aid hit on me

10:34pm:  guys suck
yes all of them
even if they're nice to me they're not going to be nice to another girl...
girls suck too...they do the same thing...
ugh...i am immature still
BUT
not as immature as all the ass holes out there...
that's all ass holes are..
immature..
the end

10:52pm: what i have to do tomorrow:
i 'm going to wake up at 5...hang up the clothes out on the line that i am going to do in 5 minutes...and then put another load in...and get ready...and wrap my cousins present...then put the load of laundry in the dryer...and walk to my moms and wrap father's day gifts...and talk to my mom about loans and transportation...then walk back to my dads and pack a bag of clothes...that will hopefully be dry...because i'm spending the night at my cousins...and thennn...brian's picking me up..then to csun...where i will ask many questions lol...and then..i don't have a ride back...so i'll walk to the mall maybe see a movie bymyself lol...and eat some
lunch...then start walking to the metrolink station at 2...then the train leaves at 3...so then i'll be at union station then i have to take the subway to my mom's work..then when she gets off...we will drive to my cousins graduation...then i will party all night with my cousin and then go home in the morning =) 
*shoots self*

11:42am: OK  so now daniel and i are on a "break"...and...still i recieved 5 missed call from him...after i told him id call him when i would get home
blah
well he says he won't do it any more now...i guess not being together makes him realize everything he's done and how the way he acts and handles situations are wrong...when i told him about college softball he threw a hissy fit...when i told him what i wanted my future profession to be he threw a hissy fit too...not because he was afraid i was going to get hurt or anything....but because he said i wouldn't have time for a bf....he wasn't so bad when i mentioned a summer job though..upset...but we didn't start yelling at eachother..any wayyss..so then wtf am i suppose to do put my life on hold?...so this "break" was probably for the better...now he's realizing everything..and i'm getting my life back on track...and it's only really been 3 days...after a while maybe we can start up new and fresh with out there being any problems or misunderstandings...next week i am shooting for my license...again...and i do feel that i will pass...and i have a very strong feeling that if none of the 1,000 places don't call me...atleast 31 flavors will...but i hope they're not fucking serious about the 15 hours a week...wtf is that!?
well...tomorrow should be fun...BEACH...i have a love hate relationahip with it lol
and friday...csun from 10-12...and then train station at 3...and then to the subway...and then to me mommy's work in down town
first time on the trains alone...but i've been on them since i was a wee little one...so if i get lost i am just a fucking tard...and then i go to santanta's graduation lol
WOOT!...andddd then idk. what the fuck's going on after wards...but then it's fathers day...and i am buying by dad's gift tonight...
and yea...i just wrote a fricken novel...=P

10:22am: FUCK  I AM BORED
now wtf do i do?

9:00am: so for  graduating from high school is boring...

10:32pm: I AM OFFICIALY AN ALUMNI WOOT!

7:56am:  SOOOOOOOOOOOOO finals are done with YEA!
and today is all about year book signing, final grades, water balloon fights, and my 8 months with daniel awww..lol
BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO WAKE UP THIS EARLY!!!
....and im hungry..so imma go eat some kix =P

8:08am: so  i graduate on friday...
sheeet...
finals tomorrow= physiology skit & english test
today...relax kick back and study my ass off
im still looking for a job i applied to a bowling alley
if anyone has any suggestions for work they would be highly appreciated...
FINALLY my dad's out of the bathroom...so im going to brush my teeth and go to shool =*

10:10pm: I  THREW UP ON SATURDAY

12:42pm:

i just came back from soccer prcatice...i have a cold and my right shin is killing me!!!...we ran 2 laps did some agility  stretched ran another 2 and then!....took the cooper test....which is when u run 1 mile...then a 4 min. break and then u run another mile...and each mile has to be under 10 minutes...!...i think i'm half dead now because after that...we did six 40 yard sprints...it ended with a scrimmage...then we walked up to coaches office and we ate together with little candles all around the tables it was so cute!...we talked and sang happy birthday to karen and then secret santa....it was a good ending to a tough day....and tomorrow i get to stuff my face...not too much though, practice is on fri....ugh!...i'm so tired and am not up to doing anything today!

11:33pm: my shoulder hurts

8:44pm: well i'm 17....WOO....any ways...play practice has started it's booooooooring...and laaaaaaaame...but wut ever next week should be stressful ooo goody!...but more stressful for the kairos leaders...man even though i see they're so stressed i wish i was going with them...i just hope all the tears will be worth it for the leaders

8:50pm: i stink...so imma go take a shower ; )

9:29pm: don't fuck with me right now...you won't like my reaction  if you do...you're usual annoying habits will piss me off more than usual and I don't care who you are...just don't fuck with me right now

7:51pm:

here..home....tired as fuck..but gotta clean..HA!..yea right...but you know what i really don't understand is why 
people bitch all the time about how horrible things are going for them...seriously, there's a certain extent of where it's just ridiculous....i guess it's because people spend too much time dwindling on what's wrong instead of what's going good....people continuously take things for granted...i guarentee you i've taken things for granted...and i've realized that i have...but it's not one of those stories where i lossed something or anything..it's just that i finally got the sense to say.. i'm just wondering who the fuck is stupid enough cares about all the bad things..i'll cut my fucking losses and 
look at the bright side..and stop bitching...and thenonce you look at the bright side you undestand how much worse things could be..and u 
just gotta start fresh...everyone needs some time to be sad about something...but don't exagerate that shit...maybe it's because they haven't had a lot of shit happen to them in their life or something....but damn...idki'm 
just upset about people complaing about how life is...IT'S LIFE!....who said it was suppose to be easy...just be happy...being happy isn't really all that hard...just stop thinking about all the bad things and concentrate on the good...deal with the bad things when they come around and bites you in the ass..but don't go on about it,bitching 
and moaning all the fucking time isn't really all that fun to hear....don't get me wrong though when you need some one to talk to about 
something i'll be there..and it's good to get stuff off your chest...but after you get it out...well you're suppose to get it out and that's the end don't keep up the bad situation for too long...not only is it annoying..but it's unhealthy...wut's life really about?...idk...but damn...be happy...and now i have to go let the kitty in...and i've also created a fun game...who can count how many time i used the word bitch or bitching!?!?!?!?

6:29pm: my beautiful day

well..i was on time...

we finished editing the commercial for the frosh. dance....

and even though we didn't have killian

saying "HEY!"...my genius plan worked jus fine haha...

we used the hey from hey jude lol...and then i got 10 outta 10 

on an english quiz...i did good in all my classes...

and the only homework i have do tomorrow is the final draft for my 

english paper..and i saw my boyfriend.......

but my cat peed on my towel...

stupid bitch.